The Adventures of Gato Mighty

Thoughts, Stories and Feels

The End 

Saying things I thought I’d never say. 

Doing things that I would never do.

Feeling a way I’ve never felt, all in response to what I know is true.

Can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. 

That doesn’t mean it’s not around the bend.

God is waiting to see what he gonedo. 

So that I’ll be with him in the end


The Revelation Continues

I’m what many people might consider giving. I appreciate all of the encouragement, the words of affirmation handed to me because I don’t necessarily think highly of myself. I appreciate people lifting me up but hopefully not in a prideful, sinful way that doesn’t glorify God. God revealing to me more and more exactly how broken I am and the extent of my loneliness exposes another layer of deceit to my sinful nature. There are times when I’m lonely that I do things not because God has placed it on my heart to do, but because in my lonely and anxious state I felt the need to bribe someone for their time in the form of a good deed. 

“If I cook for them randomly maybe they will start calling me and wanting to hang out more, and I will spend less time alone”

At my church and with my friends in general I have done this many times, unconsciously, and sometimes consciously . My homie Jeff used the term “Social Capital” to describe a suggestion he made to a group of new people he’s been getting to know. The suggestion didn’t go over well because he didn’t have enough “Social Capital”. It reminded me of myself and the ways that I attempt to increase my Social Capital. It’s a subtle form of manipulation and knowing how it feels very well to be manipulated by people..its something that I want to leave behind in my old life. When you accept the gift, the plate of food, little do you know, you are signing a contract that says you have to make time for me when I want you to, or you have to return the favor when I call on you for one. Of course this isn’t ever verbalized, but on my end a selfish expectation is formed and I am hurt when the expectation is not met.

“How dare you not hold to an agreement that only I knew about”

Realizing this has had in me in deep thought and I haven’t done intense self examining like this since I decided to become a Christian. BTW it will be 3 years April 14, 2017. A scripture that I dwell on occasionally is 

Psalm 139: 23-24

Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.

I’ve always looked at it in a way that speaks to me offending people, but as usual, here comes God shaking his finger at what I think like Dikembe Mutombo- “No No No”

The scripture is calling for God to reveal the sin that I can’t see..the sin that exist in my thoughts and feelings. The sin that I am great at hiding from people, but of course it is all laid bare before of God.
Lord, this is difficult, hands down the hardest thing I’ve ever done, but there’s no turning back.

These things weighing on my mind has been obvious to my homie/roommate but I haven’t been ready to talk about these things. It’s good for me to talk about it with people, but I like being able to speak coherently without emotions or any other interruptions, and that’s where my journal and this blog come into play. I don’t really broadcast this site. I will occasionally share a post with my close friends.It’s my therapy and I pray that people around the world seeking God stumble on this page through keywords on Google.

Thank you for taking time to read


Gato Mighty 

A Rollercoaster Of Sorts

The past couple of weeks have been an emotional roller-coaster for me. God has been revealing a lot to me about myself and it has been difficult dealing with it. The truth has been hurting but I’m thankful because it’s been pointing me towards healing. A lot of my feelings have caused me to feel guilty. Feelings of loneliness have made me feel like I’m ungrateful for all God has done for me and blessed me with. Longing to be sought after in friendships, to be needed and to be helpful and the ways I attempt to fill the void have all been distractors from me dealing with the unpleasant root of those feelings. Even worse when I run to sin for comfort in the form of food and sexual immorality. Through prayer, literature, sermons on emotional health, advice from mature Christians and the Holy Spirit doing what it does best (reveal) I see that so much of my life has been a response to loneliness. I see now that God is not going to make it easy for me now that I know the truth. He is going to discipline his child because I am, and want to always be a legitimate child of God. The past couple of weeks when the lonely feelings come, he has been closing doors to the people I run to. He has put me in some lonely spots recently so that I can spend time with Him, so that He can teach me. If you don’t struggle with loneliness, the best way I can think of to describe it is feeling like you are alone because you are unwanted, unloved, not loveable. Wondering if I annoy people secretly, and constantly thinking of the things I need to change about myself that will make people want me around. Wondering if I come on too strong, wondering if I seem desperate. These feelings aren’t really rational either. When I’m in my right mind I know people love me and that I’m wanted around. It’s a separation anxiety. I can tell you when it started. When my parents divorced I became a latch key child that let himself in the house after school and spend a lot of time alone. I was raised by my Father and by the time I got to highschool we were more like room mates than father and son. Our rooms were on opposite sides of the house. We didn’t talk much and didn’t eat meals together. God allowed some talents to develop from my loneliness..mainly my creativity which included music, writing, and comedy. Satan was right there for sin to develop also in the form of emotional eating, and sexual immorality. It’s very encouraging to know that God has feelings, and we inherited those same feelings since we were created in his image. Even Jesus, when he was here on earth lived a life that makes me wonder if His emotional health and low self esteem was something that kept Him in prayer.

Isaiah 53:1‭-‬3 NIV

Who has believed our message and to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed?  He grew up before him like a tender shoot, and like a root out of dry ground. He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to him, nothing in his appearance that we should desire him.  He was despised and rejected by mankind, a man of suffering, and familiar with pain. Like one from whom people hide their faces he was despised, and we held him in low esteem.

The Scriptures help me gain so much insight on my life as a Christian. I don’t have to feel guilty. I do need to recognize, confess the feelings and talk to God, go to God, RUN TO GOD about my feelings though. Satan sees these feeling and uses them to manipulate my mind and actions…like I’m a puppet. When I’m aware of and can define the feelings I have , i have the opportunity to hand the feelings over to God, who can make them work for my good and cut the strings the enemy uses to control me

 Romans 8:28‭-‬30 NIV

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters. And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.

God is an emotional God, but He is the master. He has all feelings and is able to remain merciful, righteous, just and forgiving; longing for a relationship with his children, longing to be united for all eternity with us. HE KNOWS HOW WE FEEL! HE KNOW HOW I FEEL! 

Hebrews 4: 14-16

Therefore since we have a great high priest who has ascended into heaven, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet he did not sin. Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.

Deuteronomy 31:8 NIV

The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.”

Now if I can just remember these things

Gato Mighty 


Riding to work I felt like listening to some Common and decided on his album “Be”

Here is a verse from the song “Faithful”
I was rollin’ around, in my mind it occurred
What if God was a her?

Would I treat her the same? Would I still be runnin’ game on her?

In what type of ways would I want her?

Would I want her for her mind or her heavenly body?

Couldn’t be out gettin’ bogus with someone so godly

If I was wit’ her would I still be wantin’ my ex?

The lies, the greed, the weed, the sex

Wouldn’t be ashamed to give her part of my check

Wearin’ her cross, I mean the heart on my neck

Her, I would reflect on the streets of the Chi’

Ride wit’ her, cause I know for me she’d die

Through good and bad call on her like I’m chirpin’ her

Couldn’t be jealous cause other brothers worship her

Walk this earth for her, glory, I’m grateful

To be in her presence I try to stay faithful

This verse didn’t mean that much to me when it originally came out and of course it didn’t because I wasn’t faithful..wasn’t trying to be either.

It reminded me of …

Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength.Deuteronomy 6:5 

Love the Lord , all his faithful people! The Lord preserves those who are true to him, but the proud he pays back in full. Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the Lord .Psalm 31:23‭-‬24

In Due Time 

This morning I read 

Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
1 Peter 5:6‭-‬7 NIV

It reminded me of one of my favorite OutKast songs “In Due Time” . CeeLo is featured and he sings the chorus
” Just keep your faith in me

Don’t act impatiently

You’ll get where you need to be

In due time

Even when things are slow

Hold on and don’t let go

I’ll give you what I owe

In due time”
Then CeeLo’s verse:

Strugglin’s just a part of my day
Many obstacles have been placed in my way

I know the only reason that I make it through

Is because I never stop believing in you

Some people wonder why we here in the first place

They can’t believe cause they ain’t never seen your face

But even when you pray, the next day you gotta try

Can’t wait for nobody to come down out the sky

You’ve got to realize that the world’s a test

You can only do your best and let Him do the rest

You’ve got your life

And got your health

So quit procrastinating and push it yourself

You’ve got to realize that the world’s a test

You can only do your best and let Him do the rest

You’ve got your life

And got your health

So quit procrastinating…

Dear Journal Part 1


Got a new Jornal last week. I love writing! I’ll be incorporating it into the blog also





Lessons in grace and forgiveness this morning.

That thing that that person did to me that had a negative impact on my day, month, year, maybe even my life was taught to them against their will, or learned as a way to cope, perhaps even a defense mechanism and they don’t know how to unlearn it.

And I am that same person/have been that person to someone else

Mathew 6:15 But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins

2 Corinthians 2:10-11 Anyone you forgive, I also forgive. And what I have forgiven—if there was anything to forgive—I have forgiven in the sight of Christ for your sake, in order that Satan might not outwit us. For we are not unaware of his schemes.

1 Colossians 3:13-14 Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.


Walter Scott 

Does God give me opportunities to forgive and be graceful ? Absolutely

I have to fight to be graceful, understanding, considerate and forgiving because I am surrounded by the opposite. The loss of life saddens me, and the thought of a person imprisoned for life saddens me also. The only way to win in what seems like a lose lose situation is to Love and Forgive.


Gato Mighty 

Thankful & Content 

The holidays can be less than joyful for me when I dwell on the negative. Because my family situation doesn’t fall in line with the “American Dream” I can become envious and jealous of others. I can easily pout and become selfish when i should be living the opposite. These are a couple of passages that help me during my less than thankful, less than graceful, less than joyful, less than gracious times


Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.


I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all this through him who gives me strength.


Philippians 4:8‭-‬9‭, ‬11‭-‬13 NIV


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