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The Adventures of Gato Mighty

Thoughts, Stories and Feels

Sharing

This morning one of my coworkers shared about the favortism and lack of fairness at our job. As she continued sharing she became visibly angry and part of the anger was from others receiving pay increases. I could relate to her feelings and though i have never verbalized my envy and jealousy, I have those thoughts and I’m still accountable for them. I shared a scripture with her:

Who is wise and understanding among you? Let them show it by their good life, by deeds done in the humility that comes from wisdom. But if you harbor bitter envy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast about it or deny the truth. Such “wisdom” does not come down from heaven but is earthly, unspiritual, demonic. For where you have envy and selfish ambition, there you find disorder and every evil practice. But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere. Peacemakers who sow in peace reap a harvest of righteousness.
James 3:13‭-‬18

She just thanked me and gave me a hug and it encouraged me. While reading it to her I was being cut by the same scripture.

That double edged sword is real!

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On The Clock

Im at work on my morning break and already looking forward to being off and at home relaxing. I feel like I’ve run my course here. People here have said some of the meanest things all because they feel like you’ll never leave this place,

“Nobody is going to walk away from a state job with benefits!”

Fortunately this job has shown me where my faith lies, with God. It has also showed my an area where I am lacking in my faith. I want something different, a job where i am able to be completely me and passionate about what I’m doing. Something that will take care of me financially as well. My faith is lacking because I dont believe God will do that for me.

Oh me of little faith

When I decided to follow Jesus, it was not for reasons of prosperity. I was cut to the heart and wanted to be reconciled with God, i wanted to be a light in this dark world while I’m here, and ultimately I want to be in heaven with my creator who loved me first before anyone else. The problem with me living as a Christian in this American culture…under the guise of “Life Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness” is that deep down I feel like God is supposed to make my life easier here on Earth.

Where is the logic in that? Did Jesus have an easy life? Who in the scriptures had an easy life? Where is this way of thinking really coming from?

I have to remember that God doesn’t car about me having things..though he blesses me with materials I know hes waiting for me to use these materials to His glory as an encouragment and a blessing for others.

Thanks for reading these random thoughts from the break room

Viva Las Vegas

This world is broken, and its always been THIS broken. Horrible things have always happened at the hand of human beings but now thanks to media we have the “privilege” or reliving them over and over whether it personally happened to you or the media “informed” you.

One thing i know ALL about is being angry, sad, frustrated or what have you and projecting those feelings on someone innocent. Always looking for something or someone to blame for why i was hurting. Knowing that that is the world I come from, I run into people all the time from “my old neighborhood”.

Stay with me….”my old neighborhood” figuratively, not literally.

I have to fight to show them and tell them about this new place and its not easy. Im not that far removed to where I cant fall into old habits especially with whats happening today. There are so many opportunities to argue, slander, and be divisive.

These are thoughts this morning after some serious prayer…..

A coworker told me people like me “Who didn’t go out and vote” share some blame for the tragedy in Las Vegas.

Bruh…..

Jesus had to hold my:
Mule
Donkey
Goldfish
Stuffed Giraffe
Blue Pitbull
Pitbull the rapper
Beer
Keys
TREE FITTY

But this scripture holds true to me….i believe this whole heartedly

For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.
Ephesians 6:12

Luke 6: 30-31

Give to everyone who asks you, and if anyone takes what belongs to you, do not demand it back. Do to others as you would have them do to you.
Luke 6:30‭-‬31

This morning my co-worker was telling about someone who asked him for gas money at a gas station, and how he didn’t give because the person was driving a newer model car. To top it all off, he told the person something to the extent of “Thats your problem”/”Thats your fault”.

I was upset to here this, but it really made me take a look at myself. I hardly vocalize how I’m feeling (because i internalize everything), but my actions speak loud and clear. Whether you aren’t giving in public or aren’t giving in private, God sees it all, and if we are following Him we’ve got to do better.

Something else I do is say “We” to take the sting away, soften the blow of God telling me “Gato, repent, change, turn to me, submit to my will”

The scripture is clear. GIVE!

I recently prayed that I be able to consistently give financially but i know its deeper than that. Giving includes my time also.

My giving hasn’t been good 😮😯😔

How has your giving been? I’d like to hear from you in a comment

Engraved

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So, long story short,

I have a biological mother who i didn’t find out about until i was in my early 20s.

There wasn’t anything I lacked when it came to having a mother growing up, the woman who stepped up to marry my father and raise me is a wonderful and selfless woman. I loved her even more when i found out the sacrifices she made in being my mother and our relationship never wavered even after she divorced my father…she was still there, still my mother.

Even though i didn’t lack anything in a mother/son relationship i was excited about the opportunity for more love in my life and the opportunity to know my family history.

My biologial mother has been through a lot of physical and emotional pain. Her scars are all hidden so I try hard to be understanding, loving and patient with her. Despite any understanding, I have my own emotions and hurt that i bring to the table also and my lonliness causes me to feel forgotten and not loved by her. She has a history of cutting people off and has done so with me several times the past decade Satan wispers things to me like

“If your own mother doesn’t love you nobody will”

She recently made contact with me and I’ve had to create some personal boundaries to protect myself. While going through this absolutley all feelings, good and bad have been present. My God, who is compassionate, loving and encouraging allowed me to run across this scripture today

“Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I will not forget you!  See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands; your walls are ever before me.

Isaiah 49:15‭-‬16 NIV

Thank you for reading!

Yours truly,

Gato Mighty

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Applicable

I have a vivid imagination and it goes wild when i read scripture. There’s no telling where the word is going to send my mind and no telling what layer or angle will stand out each day.

So, I’m reading in Psalms

See how numerous are my enemies and how fiercely they hate me! Guard my life and rescue me; do not let me be put to shame, for I take refuge in you. May integrity and uprightness protect me, because my hope, Lord , is in you.

Psalm 25:19‭-‬21

It reminded me of the gang members and drug dealers I’ve met that were desperately trying to leave that lifestyle behind and break the cycle.  Knowing that they were heading to prison or the grave wanting to change if for anything, to be there to raise their kids and be the father they didn’t have.

It reminds how the bible speaks to every bit of the human condition. Poverty, suffering, oppression, wealth, privilege, racism you name it.

Thanks for reading

A Multitude of Sins

During the days of Jesus’ life on earth, he offered up prayers and petitions with fervent cries and tears to the one who could save him from death, and he was heard because of his reverent submission. Son though he was, he learned obedience from what he suffered and, once made perfect, he became the source of eternal salvation for all who obey him

Hebrews 5:7‭-‬9 

Father in Heaven,

  1. Thank you for leading me to this road. I dont at all regret my decision to follow you, but God I confuse myself by the way I run right back to the things you set me free from. Father you have placed people in my life because its not for man to be alone, and I know there are things we are supposed to learn from and teach one another. Father in heaven, the sin that so easily entangles causes my spiritual family including myself to isolate and in a way..clock out from Christianity. Its hard for me to give a harsh rebuke, but is that even what you’ve put me here to do? The double edged sword cuts me deep because people are confessing to me sins that I’m guilty of. I become concerned but I’m just as sinful. I know we are to judge our spiritual family, and hold them accountable, but perhaps God, you are grooming me to be an instrument of your unconditional love. God nobody disciplines like you do…your discipline is perfect. I think about being punished by my father when i was growing up and how my mother always supported, never undermined his decision. She maintained the standard, but always knew how to show me that everything would be okay and how loved I was. I know that i dont need to ignore any elephant in the room or any difficult conversations but when i look at my life, even before i knew You, your love protected me, your love taught me, your love gave me time to build an understanding. Your love is what brought me here. I dont think i can give out what i never received, and God you never handed me tough love. I know that my heart is deceptive, and i also recognize that i confuse the heart with the spirit a lot, but God if my way of thinking and feeling is off i know you will open my eyes and show me.

Thank you and please continue teaching me and my spiritual family. Please lead my one another relationships and my discipling relationships

In Jesus’s name,

Amen

Hopeful 

April 14th will be year 3 as a Christian for me. I’m continuing to learn more and more about myself and though seeing more of who I really am is scary, I’m very encouraged that God reveals things in digestible amounts. A lot of times there have been some big pills to swallow, but Amen for the truth that sets us free. This morning I’m doing a bible study focused on my purity and Day 6 is titled “Hope”. It asks the question: 

“Do you believe that God can deliver you?”

I can sometimes be overly and deceptively optimistic on how things actually are and I’m learning to be honest with myself first then let it trickle down to the rest of my life. Now, God knows the answer already and it’s impossible for us to lie to God, we only lie to ourselves. I broke through a barrier this morning, and God answered a prayer of mine in the perfect way only He can. I pray for my faith to increase often so I will see and feel more of His presence in my life. My faith needing to increase is at least aknolowging that there is some faith there. So, how much more do I need? Well, it seems like just like love, faith is such a powerful  and spiritual thing that it cannot be measured. I could never give you 2 pounds of love..there is only love, there is only faith. Interesting enough, even though it can’t be measured we can recognize almost instantly when there is a lack of it. For my faith to increase I first had to take inventory. The question from my Bible study allowed that to happen, and the answer let’s me know where I am on the issue. 

The truth is..currently, I don’t believe that I can be delivered from this particular sin..my thorn. That is perfectly okay because it’s the truth on how I feel and its temporary. I’m okay with temporary. I’ve experienced many things…small and large, all miraculous things that have increased my faith. I’m greatful for God continuing to reach out and pursue a deeper relationship with me..its humbling because well…God is great and I am not, and because of Him I know that I’m special and wanted. The enemy wants me to feel alone, not special, not wanted..which is how I spent a lot of my childhood feeling. Partly because of some things happening in my enviorment/home life and the other part due to a developing sinful nature that the devil used to fuel my rebellion against God. 

So now that I have taken inventory and see the lack, I pray that God allows me to complete this race in a way that allows me to put Him on display and not myself. I don’t think highly of myself spiritually which is probably a good thing. It might keep me from being so judgemental on how others are doing. Sometimes when people share their struggles I have a minute or two of self righteousness as if I’m doing better because the struggle isn’t the same. Then I remember the struggle is the same. It’s fighting to be like Jesus in all Situations, it’s self denial/dying to self, it’s serving. Self righteousness and judgement divide us, but helping eachother carry burdens and the blood of Christ unites me with my brothers and sisters.

Remember Jesus Christ, raised from the dead, descended from David. This is my gospel, for which I am suffering even to the point of being chained like a criminal. But God’s word is not chained. Therefore I endure everything for the sake of the elect, that they too may obtain the salvation that is in Christ Jesus, with eternal glory.  Here is a trustworthy saying: If we died with him, we will also live with him;  if we endure, we will also reign with him. If we disown him, he will also disown us;  if we are faithless, he remains faithful, for he cannot disown himself.

2 Timothy 2:8‭-‬13 NIV

Thank you for reading 

Sincerely,

Gato Mighty 

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