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The Adventures of Gato Mighty

Thoughts, Stories and Feels

Viva Las Vegas

This world is broken, and its always been THIS broken. Horrible things have always happened at the hand of human beings but now thanks to media we have the “privilege” or reliving them over and over whether it personally happened to you or the media “informed” you.

One thing i know ALL about is being angry, sad, frustrated or what have you and projecting those feelings on someone innocent. Always looking for something or someone to blame for why i was hurting. Knowing that that is the world I come from, I run into people all the time from “my old neighborhood”.

Stay with me….”my old neighborhood” figuratively, not literally.

I have to fight to show them and tell them about this new place and its not easy. Im not that far removed to where I cant fall into old habits especially with whats happening today. There are so many opportunities to argue, slander, and be divisive.

These are thoughts this morning after some serious prayer…..

A coworker told me people like me “Who didn’t go out and vote” share some blame for the tragedy in Las Vegas.

Bruh…..

Jesus had to hold my:
Mule
Donkey
Goldfish
Stuffed Giraffe
Blue Pitbull
Pitbull the rapper
Beer
Keys
TREE FITTY

But this scripture holds true to me….i believe this whole heartedly

For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.
Ephesians 6:12

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Luke 6: 30-31

Give to everyone who asks you, and if anyone takes what belongs to you, do not demand it back. Do to others as you would have them do to you.
Luke 6:30‭-‬31

This morning my co-worker was telling about someone who asked him for gas money at a gas station, and how he didn’t give because the person was driving a newer model car. To top it all off, he told the person something to the extent of “Thats your problem”/”Thats your fault”.

I was upset to here this, but it really made me take a look at myself. I hardly vocalize how I’m feeling (because i internalize everything), but my actions speak loud and clear. Whether you aren’t giving in public or aren’t giving in private, God sees it all, and if we are following Him we’ve got to do better.

Something else I do is say “We” to take the sting away, soften the blow of God telling me “Gato, repent, change, turn to me, submit to my will”

The scripture is clear. GIVE!

I recently prayed that I be able to consistently give financially but i know its deeper than that. Giving includes my time also.

My giving hasn’t been good 😮😯😔

How has your giving been? I’d like to hear from you in a comment

Engraved

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So, long story short,

I have a biological mother who i didn’t find out about until i was in my early 20s.

There wasn’t anything I lacked when it came to having a mother growing up, the woman who stepped up to marry my father and raise me is a wonderful and selfless woman. I loved her even more when i found out the sacrifices she made in being my mother and our relationship never wavered even after she divorced my father…she was still there, still my mother.

Even though i didn’t lack anything in a mother/son relationship i was excited about the opportunity for more love in my life and the opportunity to know my family history.

My biologial mother has been through a lot of physical and emotional pain. Her scars are all hidden so I try hard to be understanding, loving and patient with her. Despite any understanding, I have my own emotions and hurt that i bring to the table also and my lonliness causes me to feel forgotten and not loved by her. She has a history of cutting people off and has done so with me several times the past decade Satan wispers things to me like

“If your own mother doesn’t love you nobody will”

She recently made contact with me and I’ve had to create some personal boundaries to protect myself. While going through this absolutley all feelings, good and bad have been present. My God, who is compassionate, loving and encouraging allowed me to run across this scripture today

“Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I will not forget you!  See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands; your walls are ever before me.

Isaiah 49:15‭-‬16 NIV

Thank you for reading!

Yours truly,

Gato Mighty

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Applicable

I have a vivid imagination and it goes wild when i read scripture. There’s no telling where the word is going to send my mind and no telling what layer or angle will stand out each day.

So, I’m reading in Psalms

See how numerous are my enemies and how fiercely they hate me! Guard my life and rescue me; do not let me be put to shame, for I take refuge in you. May integrity and uprightness protect me, because my hope, Lord , is in you.

Psalm 25:19‭-‬21

It reminded me of the gang members and drug dealers I’ve met that were desperately trying to leave that lifestyle behind and break the cycle.  Knowing that they were heading to prison or the grave wanting to change if for anything, to be there to raise their kids and be the father they didn’t have.

It reminds how the bible speaks to every bit of the human condition. Poverty, suffering, oppression, wealth, privilege, racism you name it.

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A Multitude of Sins

During the days of Jesus’ life on earth, he offered up prayers and petitions with fervent cries and tears to the one who could save him from death, and he was heard because of his reverent submission. Son though he was, he learned obedience from what he suffered and, once made perfect, he became the source of eternal salvation for all who obey him

Hebrews 5:7‭-‬9 

Father in Heaven,

  1. Thank you for leading me to this road. I dont at all regret my decision to follow you, but God I confuse myself by the way I run right back to the things you set me free from. Father you have placed people in my life because its not for man to be alone, and I know there are things we are supposed to learn from and teach one another. Father in heaven, the sin that so easily entangles causes my spiritual family including myself to isolate and in a way..clock out from Christianity. Its hard for me to give a harsh rebuke, but is that even what you’ve put me here to do? The double edged sword cuts me deep because people are confessing to me sins that I’m guilty of. I become concerned but I’m just as sinful. I know we are to judge our spiritual family, and hold them accountable, but perhaps God, you are grooming me to be an instrument of your unconditional love. God nobody disciplines like you do…your discipline is perfect. I think about being punished by my father when i was growing up and how my mother always supported, never undermined his decision. She maintained the standard, but always knew how to show me that everything would be okay and how loved I was. I know that i dont need to ignore any elephant in the room or any difficult conversations but when i look at my life, even before i knew You, your love protected me, your love taught me, your love gave me time to build an understanding. Your love is what brought me here. I dont think i can give out what i never received, and God you never handed me tough love. I know that my heart is deceptive, and i also recognize that i confuse the heart with the spirit a lot, but God if my way of thinking and feeling is off i know you will open my eyes and show me.

Thank you and please continue teaching me and my spiritual family. Please lead my one another relationships and my discipling relationships

In Jesus’s name,

Amen

Hopeful 

April 14th will be year 3 as a Christian for me. I’m continuing to learn more and more about myself and though seeing more of who I really am is scary, I’m very encouraged that God reveals things in digestible amounts. A lot of times there have been some big pills to swallow, but Amen for the truth that sets us free. This morning I’m doing a bible study focused on my purity and Day 6 is titled “Hope”. It asks the question: 

“Do you believe that God can deliver you?”

I can sometimes be overly and deceptively optimistic on how things actually are and I’m learning to be honest with myself first then let it trickle down to the rest of my life. Now, God knows the answer already and it’s impossible for us to lie to God, we only lie to ourselves. I broke through a barrier this morning, and God answered a prayer of mine in the perfect way only He can. I pray for my faith to increase often so I will see and feel more of His presence in my life. My faith needing to increase is at least aknolowging that there is some faith there. So, how much more do I need? Well, it seems like just like love, faith is such a powerful  and spiritual thing that it cannot be measured. I could never give you 2 pounds of love..there is only love, there is only faith. Interesting enough, even though it can’t be measured we can recognize almost instantly when there is a lack of it. For my faith to increase I first had to take inventory. The question from my Bible study allowed that to happen, and the answer let’s me know where I am on the issue. 

The truth is..currently, I don’t believe that I can be delivered from this particular sin..my thorn. That is perfectly okay because it’s the truth on how I feel and its temporary. I’m okay with temporary. I’ve experienced many things…small and large, all miraculous things that have increased my faith. I’m greatful for God continuing to reach out and pursue a deeper relationship with me..its humbling because well…God is great and I am not, and because of Him I know that I’m special and wanted. The enemy wants me to feel alone, not special, not wanted..which is how I spent a lot of my childhood feeling. Partly because of some things happening in my enviorment/home life and the other part due to a developing sinful nature that the devil used to fuel my rebellion against God. 

So now that I have taken inventory and see the lack, I pray that God allows me to complete this race in a way that allows me to put Him on display and not myself. I don’t think highly of myself spiritually which is probably a good thing. It might keep me from being so judgemental on how others are doing. Sometimes when people share their struggles I have a minute or two of self righteousness as if I’m doing better because the struggle isn’t the same. Then I remember the struggle is the same. It’s fighting to be like Jesus in all Situations, it’s self denial/dying to self, it’s serving. Self righteousness and judgement divide us, but helping eachother carry burdens and the blood of Christ unites me with my brothers and sisters.

Remember Jesus Christ, raised from the dead, descended from David. This is my gospel, for which I am suffering even to the point of being chained like a criminal. But God’s word is not chained. Therefore I endure everything for the sake of the elect, that they too may obtain the salvation that is in Christ Jesus, with eternal glory.  Here is a trustworthy saying: If we died with him, we will also live with him;  if we endure, we will also reign with him. If we disown him, he will also disown us;  if we are faithless, he remains faithful, for he cannot disown himself.

2 Timothy 2:8‭-‬13 NIV

Thank you for reading 

Sincerely,

Gato Mighty 

Fast

I’m so greatful that God doesn’t require perfection…I would be doomed. Pride is such a dangerous thing and I fall victim to it often. Whether I fall when no one is looking or in front of people I always fall. Always lying to myself, deceiving myself by thinking I know what’s best for me. Lord, I’m trying to enjoy the seasons but I hate change and want to be in control. Interesting the path I chose because I admitted I didn’t know what was best and surrendered control. My actions sometimes say that I want to go back on the decision and I wonder how it was for first century Christians. Has the human heart and condition changed at all? Leading by example scares me, but I just want to make it to heaven with the people that I love here on earth. I want to meet and love more people and bring them with me. I want to give, serve, and encourage but I’m a wretch. The enemy makes me feel like I’m unlovable and that God’s promises are too good to be true. Lord please help me to know better and do better.

I started a fast from Facebook this week, the plan is to go to God more instead of social media. Seeking validation in likes when I should be seeking the kingdom.  Connecting with people in real life offline….

Thanks for reading,

Sincerely,

Gato Mighty

Rise And Shine 

Screenshot_20170325-081655Quiet time this morning, listening to Big Krit – Rise and Shine and herd some connections in the first verse. I’ve been really examining what I listen to lately. Before I was a Christian music and HipHop was my religion. I honestly believe God was reaching out to me through the culture so I’ve been incorporating the music into my Bible study…
The first verse goes
Early morning, kinda sleepy, still yawning

Log on and, dial toning

Forever phoning, for a blessing

Will you help me get my ass up out the bed and go

God love me cause he said it so

Don’t look away cause I beg for more

Than I ever ever had

Praying for the future but I’m dealing with the past

Mama say I’m worried cause I’m too much like my dad

Some things are forever, nothing ever last

Like the rising of the sun or when big mama passed

Time travel fast, search and you shall find

Awake from yo slumber, open up yo blinds
Sounds like in the verse he (Krit) mentions “Forever phoning for a blessing” or always praying for a blessing or praying for change.
I’m one needy human being:

I need wisdom

I need guidance

I need insight

I need more faith
I could go on, and sometimes I attribute what I’ve experienced from other people to what will happen with God.
“Don’t look away because I beg for more than I’ve ever had”
The times I’ve overwhelmed a friend with what I needed to the point where they had to step away or vice-versa when I stepped away.
“Praying for the future but I’m dealing with the past, Mama say I’m worried cause I’m too much like my Dad”
The past has a negative influence on today’s faith and looking at what’s in front of me and what I know has me worried and feeling hopeless. As If what I see is all seeing and what I know is all knowing.
All ways that I felt before some guys opened up the word and showed me some scripture.
All in all…the first verse of this Krit song reminds me of
Jeremiah 29: 11-14
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord , “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you,” declares the Lord , “and will bring you back from captivity. I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you,” declares the Lord , “and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile.”

Jeremiah 29:11‭-‬14
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