It’s very easy for me to only be concerned with what I’m going through. I can become so consumed with my self (selfishness) that it shows in my interactions with friends and strangers. Lets talk about my friends though, 2 in particular.
I will never say names on this blog because part of my creating this blog is to share my life and the things I’m learning as a disciple in a safe place, in a righteous way that teaches but doesn’t dishonor others, and always protects.
The person who is immediately on my heart is a brother who I’m in disagreement with right now. I’ll share more about my talents in the future, but long story short, I am a music producer, mainly HipHop. The brother that I’m not on one accord with is frustrated with the way I work. And I’m frustrated about him not taking my experienced advice. During the interactions which have mostly been through text (mistake), I feel like he has a lack of concern for whats happening in my life, and in his frustration he is saying some hurtful things. As I grow as a Christian, my convictions on using words to uplift people and not tear them down is strengthening, but I’m trying to find that middle ground of that and sharing the truth in love. I know that he has his struggles also and perhaps the frustration is from another part of his life and he’s misdirecting the frustration. There are a ton of things I can’t see, and things that I will never know about peoples life unless they share them so this morning I will spend time praying for this brother, and praying that I be led by the spirit in my interactions with him while we are at odds.
The 2nd brother I am at odds with I truly dont know hiw he’s doing because he won’t ever call me back. Maybe he’s upset with me and isn’t ready to talk about it. I’ve talked with him before about how it makes me feel when he doesn’t return my calls. It’s not the first time this has happened and I’m just trying to not succumb to negative thoughts and feels towards my brother. Growing closer to people and maintaining friendships has become harder for me as I get older, but I believe in deep friendships so I’m going to fight for my friendships…even when I’m the only one fighting.
Jesus fought for me.
Please pray for me and unity with my friends…..these 2 in particular.